As I lay in bed thinking about life, all I can say is that I want out of here. Salt Lake has given me all it can offer and I don't see myself living here.
girls are dumbIt seems as if every girl I think about liking ends up stabbing me in the back and kicking me in the jugular. All of them want a return missionary and that aint me. I feel like I don't have anything to offer them yet I always hear how great of a guy I am.
friends are shady
It seems as if every friend I have ever had has disrespected me in some way and leaves me in the dust. I have very few real friends I don't think there are any more for me here in Salt Lake. I have reached my limit. I'm sick of being on some waiting list to hear back from "friends" and I am sick of everyone knowing each other. Everyone is connected in some way and it pisses me off. I need out.
school sucks
It seems as if no matter how hard I study and achieve good grades, I don't know what I want to study. I am currently in the Sign Language Interpreting Program, but what after that? I have had my mind set on the Medical field, but is that what I really want to do? In ten years, I will just be starting my career with thousands of dollars of debt. Life is confusing. Nobody comes out of it alive.
utah sucks
It seems as if Utah can offer me nothing. I want warm, sunny air with the smell of salt lingering in my nostrils. I want a big city bustling around with the sounds of laughter, sirens, and music. I want to be surrounded with people who don't place judgement's on others just for their appearances. I want to live in a spacious studio apartment with art hanging from the walls. I want to be able to walk around the city with my camera in my hand making art out of people's lives. If love exists, I want to find it. I want to find a lover. want a lover who will make me handmade cards and walk in the park with me while laughing about novels, life, and people. I want to wake up next to that person with a smile on my face knowing that happiness does truly exist. I want to walk to work with a coffee in one hand and my blackberry in the other with not a single worry. What I want is change. I am in a love/hate relationship with change. It is inevitable, yet the world attempts to force so much change on all of us every day. I want to move. Get out. Experience life outside of this Mormon Bubble. I want to dive in to culture and life and experience the wonders of the world. I want to wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy. I guess that is all for today.
Lonely Boy
